Just read a shocking article on global warming.

I do think we have something to worry about..... the end

Its been a long time since i rememember being this ill! I think the last time was when i scored pneumonia after an 8 month ice binge.

Started to hit Monday, fell asleep upon returning home from work, also the first day i decided to go to the gym @ 6am, i thought this was normal behaviour, work out, work your day come home have a nap. Tuesday woke up hit the gym and did not fare too well after the session @ all, Body Aches & Fevers @ Work :(

Tuesday nite Fever and sore throat kicked in. Wednesday felt horrible all day sore throat in full effect. Wednesday night worst fever on earth for 2 hours before bed, woke up drenched many times. Sore throat past the point of unbearable.

Thursday morning up @ 7am Straight down the medical centre,  i sorta knew something was a bit suss about the state of my health and the fact i could see white stuff in my throat which i thought was puss but denied confirmed by the doctor on Thurs morning.  Left with a 50 pack of antobiotics of the strongest kind and some maouth gargle.
A swab was taken of my throat and sent to the pathology. Mum will get the results foe me in advance considering she works there (a)

I explained the pain to him as the most excruiating pain i have ever felt, cant swallow,  eating is so painfull, cant sleep because it involves swallowing and swallowing doesnt work :( nothing gets rid of the pain either, i need some pain killers or something! Tonight will mark the second night in a row of no sleep.  Will be going to the Doc tomorrow afternoon if  the pain in my throat has not subsided or showing any improvement. Its hell on earth i couldnt possibly sook any more?!?!?!!

I have already decided i will not be going to work on Monday. as its 12.15 am that is tomorrow! :S 2 nights no sleep theres no way i will be able to function @ work :/

The glad on the right side of my neck is that large its pulsating out my neck, i cant really move my neck as it hurts way too much :( Last night i went to bed with an icepack in a teatowel tied around my neck like some sort of neck brace... lol 

Enough of my whinging.

I spent all day scanning picys for the massive slide on myspace, go check it out :), cleaning, watching tele, reading the paper. Went shopping with mum but we had to come home cos i started to feel really sick in the stomach, the most of it caused by that nauseaus feeling you get when you need to eat. I need to eat. i just cant really eat! The biggest thing i ate today was a mini bown of mash potato with some mince on top which gave me reflux . I just cant win :(

Im off to bed maybe,..........

After a fantastic weekend i am left to feel severely shit about how i neglected some of my bestest of friends.

For those who experienced it i feel more than upset about it and am extremely angry with myself.

On that note i am exhausted @ 849 pm and heading to bed.

I owe you all a lot.

<3 L

• Farewell Chicken. + Added weekend = Pure Bliss..... a weekend to remember for sure! Will miss your dearly Lolli C <3
• Swans game Friday !!! was so excited, Backos ate a dirty kebab and couldnt come with me to the game :( So kasey came open arms, We got pretty wasted and had fun :P The awans won, back 2 back grand finals baby!! Bring on next weekend, i will be watching the game before hannah and jezzas somewhere !
• Checked out a hottie 2 rows in front of us @ the game, As i was using the ATM @ newport arms saturday night i saw him and went had a chat it was fucking random as!! Kasey he was well hott and had better jeans on!
• I LOVE my AFL i am so happy for the swans, they be going great, footy is something i love watching, im going to do more of it next season :)
• Saturday GYMMED it and bummed round, coloured my hair again and got ready then headed to other laurens, for her farewell :( I picked up her and her parentals from church point they were so wasted! her dad works in hong kong and came back for her move.... and well loz doesnt wanna go now :( i feel so bad for her mmmmmmmm chris
• Went to the arms to start of drinking with her family and friends  from all round and girls from work
• When i arrived @ the table next to us was the guy i used to 'see' from maccas i haddnt seen him in ages! We got along like a house on fire, he finally got a mobile so we swapped numbers and now can stay in touch :) He trierd to mack me hard i wasnt having a bar of it tho... i may @ some stage, but i dont think i want to. We chatted bout how we used to get along so well and he said outa all his past ladies hes never gotten along with anyone quite like me before.. i was like awwwwwww still hes gotten a bit manky. really doesnt care about appearance! It was fantastic to see him. He asked how my family situation was and about eerything, will prob go out and have something to eat with him sometime soon :)
• Moved on to manly which fucking rocked!! Ran into fiona from work she came and joined us all night which was funny.. cos chris and other loz were macking it hard the rumour mill @ work will be getting a good work out monday i think. Its ok cos loz has left :(
• Learnt a new term for farting 'dropping an air shit' , we laughed all night about this one. Love Kylie! Her new place is going great her house warming is in a few weeks
• Things went well with Dane :$:$:$ I woke up in his arms thismorning.... oh my and i get the butterflies when i think about him, hes drop dead gorgeous, he has an amazing body and he is so much fun, hes a surfie, 27, lives in manly with chris the guy from work that Loz C is friendly with. He has his own plumbing business, he has a black falcon ute and well he is great, they are coming to parklife this weekend =D I am really happy about this i hope he calls me and it works out or we can get 2 know!
• Last night was shots, dancing, jager bombs and beer and spirits, last night was hell amounts of fun! I love going out in manly lately, fuckingmad people, bloody great nights!
• Dane and i messed around for about 2 hours then went to bed , i was so impressed with him he didnt even try and undress me or make moves towards having sex with me, this was great as i was not looking to sleep with him last night, waking up in his arms was so nice. I didnt kiss him when we were out, when we got back to their we went to the bedroom got into bed and turned the lights off and we were looking @ eachother and he put his head forward and kissed me, we locked lips for about 20 seconds so softly at that point my insides went a little crazy.  I have got it BAD but this one will be going slowly. :) From then on in lots of well passionate kissing went on and the absolute living shit was teased out of eachother.. i have been so on edge today! I also got my period when i woke up this moring @ the guys place. It has been overly painfull :( I havent liked some one in SO long, well liked some one like this, to the point they make me feel all funny and gooey SIGH!!! Danes got it together, hes great fun and he is something new. By luck hes fucking hot and he likes me...... working with his mate i know these things.
• I upset one of Chrises other mates JEz last night, he liked me i feel bad jez is also gorgeous and awesome. I want to find him a woman, i think i wil be seeing more of these boys a lot more often :)
• Loz and chris came knocking on Danes door pretty early, Loz's time was ticking down :(:(:(:(:(:( , we had to get on our way, which was a shame today could have lasted an eternity.... i wanted it to. :)
• Got back 2 Lozs, helped her with her bags got ogalo chilled with her mum and dad who are amazing! I feel slightly weird hanging around families where so much love goes on, it great nether the less, i really like it it made me feel all nice.
• Had a filthy after grog meal from the chicken shop but it was so unreal
• Loz got me a gift, I scored a tiffanies heart necklace, the small one the same as sares :) and a paif of real pearl earings! they are gorgeous!
• Time was nearly out by then... Loz and i walked hand in hand out her front door, down in the lift tears welling up in our eyes :(, we were making a joke out of trying to hold it back, we both finally cracked it down by the car, she is only going for a year.... maybe a lot less now her and chris have fallen head over heels and she is going to port to live with another guy..and finish her uni. she really doesnt not want to go @ all... i feel for her in this situation so deeply being there for her the past few weeks, she didnt want to go @ all but she was in too deep as a good mate i gave her the advice you just need to go she said i know and see how it goes. I would do anything to have her back ASAP. We will be in tough 24/ 7 and her and chris will still be communicating frequently, shes going to feel so alone, so homesick.. i expect a teary phone call in the upcoming weeks... poor chicken :(
• The her and chris me and dane lauren and chris lauren and dane thing is a little corny..*sigh*
• We had a long chat by the car , we cried a fair amount then we said good byes, Loz would have touched down in port sometime now.
• I am going to miss this girl like crazy, i hope she is OK <3 Work wont be the same!
• Today i did nothing but chat on the phone and relax

This week

Seeing kate tmrw on lunch break
Gymming it
Mite go for dinner with dane Thurs or friday night if he asks me *fingers crossed*
Work will be hell
Need to get a dress for parklife, just a simple one will do :)
Friday night--- free i think?
Sat- nite hannah n jezzas, rods and AFL grand final with Kylie and her mates
Sunday parklife
Monday DIE

I am feeling pretty okay at the moment :)
Im feeling good :)

Miss you chicken... be well be swell love you xx L

What a week and what a time i have been having lately :)Life has been full on and fast and going pretty good minus the health situation.. but this post aint about the state of my health.

Last weekend was inasne.. to am efforts on the piss Friday night then saturday night ended up @ a guy from works in manly till the weee am as well. they have a pole dancing pole mounted in their living room me chels and loz got back there and it was shots down and pole on, it was by far a really crazy time. Loz is getting on well with chris really well but shes moving to port douglas this sunday to live with another guy 4 a year and finish her uni honours, problem being she has fallen for chirs and he rates her highly this guy is also the hottest guy @ work... im like chicken nooooooo now she doesnt want to go but shes in to deep with the port sitaution :( I fancy his room mate dane :P and we seem to have heaps in common.. thissaturday night will be well interesting.. i already know what i am wearing ahemmm i sound like kasey lol

This week on tuesday i had dinner @ steves
Wednesday nite was placebo it was fucking amazing :)
Today i was on annual leave
got up drove 2 the mall went gym drove home
bummed around drove to crows nest and had lunch with kasey lady drove home
cleaned my room and ripped a storm on myspace
Drove 2 chatswood and shopped then met the lovely kate 4 dinner <3 shopped some more :P she got the swankest dress 4 parklife!
drove home now i am here
Tomorrow night i am going to the swans game i AM SO EXCITED!! catching up with an old school mate @ the game :)
SATURDAY i plan to gym it and have some much needed ME time
Sat nite is Lozs farewell :(... :) newport arms then to manly and meeting up with friends from all around quite a few pple are coming down rach emz guys from work maye chels and brenty and their crew.. so busy!
Sunday well prob end up @ the guy from works in manly... we hope hehe

This post is for my CHICKEN or AKA Lauren Chambers, this girl rocks and i got tears in my eyes today with the thought of her leaving, id love 2 spend the summer with her. I have never met a more down to earch kind but also a girl with that harsh bitchy side in my life, me and her chicken and chicken have become the bestest of friends, i love her to bits, work is not going to be the same without her :(
We think the world of eachother and chatter on like nothing else.

I am going to miss her dearly.

tomorow is it for her :(

its time to burn some lavendar oil and get to bed.... before it all goes to fast again and shes gone ! oh no. but she will be back in a year maybe sooner if things dont work with dan and she cant get chris of her head. Its been os hard talking her around this i mean i can tell her i want her to stay and the summer will be amazing we can mack these boys and have the best time! but i am telling her she needs to go and she has hooked this in and she needs to think positive... i can completely understand what is going through her head. Chris came 4 months to late or dan came 4 months 2 early id do anything 4 her to stay.. anything really.

<3 L

p.s john RANDOMHAY!!!!

Im only happy when it rains.... reversal.... could the rain go away!!?

Last night was spent in manly got pissy on the pure blondes. had about 6 beers all up good chats with mates and well manly lost the footy. i hope the swans win tonight! I wish i could be watching the game!

Im only posting here cos i dont want to be tidying up my room and sorting out my clothes mess!

i really should go do that.

Really looking forward 2 mexican tonite :) hope i have enough dosh to cover it... lol shops oops...

The mall tonight was hell :(
I want to buy buy buy... but i wont. i have decided i will buy all summer

- 1 dress beachy
- 1 dress stylish
- 1 summery flowy top
- good thongs
- Beach bag
- 2 small bottles of perfume (50mls) Summer smells


I will buy so much more i think

i just need to mix and match

UK & europe is locked in for june july 2008. i will need to save a fuckload


anyways had a rad sleep last night need to watch another one tonight 

xoxoxoxox L

• I HAD THE MOST UNREAL WEEKEND
• Friday night was spent down Manly with Kev, ran into brention chelsea and that crew <3 kev met them, loved them had such a grea night, didnt drink :)
• Saturday got some sun, went to the gym had a relaxing day @ home, madea fucking great sandwich :P
• Saturday night was fucking messy, started @ one of tims mates places down in dee why. His mates were fucking hot, it was a perve fest max :P they were also really great guys.. the reall laid back surfie ones.
• Got talking the a girl there from belgium, her name was sarah she fucking rocked :) we chatted about Robbie Williams she went to his concert over seas she said it was unreal and that he kisses chicks from the crowd. a low cut top is in order :P man id do anything to sEX robbie hahaha
• SATURDAY NIGHT- was fucking MESSY, i was wasted as shit, we went to minskies in neutral bay, was pretty dead there, still the funniest place to go haha! Tymon and Ash rocked up as well, copious amounts of grog was consumed Stayed @ Tims
• Woke up so hungover @ tims so fucking hungover
• Today i went out on my friends boat IT WAS THE MOST AMAZING DAY OLD FRIENDS ROCK :) got a little bit stoned as well lol!! we were all sitting up in this tree smoking a doobie. Brenton has a wakeboard and this huge inflatable ring! his boat is so fast and they said i was more than welcome to join them for a summer on the water :) I am looking forward to this for a few reasons. These are freidns i really cherish, they are so kind hearted and fun they would do anything for me and that is returned.
• This weekend
• We had a BBQ joked around and had a massive catch up chat with Esther, she was in my group from school, shes dating Jamie one of the guys, we still get along really well. In a few weeks one of the other girls bec is getting back from overseas, she was also in my group, were going to go for dinner. :)
• Brentons mate Chris is hot as, but hes a slut... he calls me sexy.. brenton said he would shank me if i go near chris in that way. i think ill keep it at a distance, i dont want to stir shit within this group @ all especially over something like sex... mmmm sexings
• Funny comment of the day, there was a heavily pregnant woman Ester right out went that pregnant woman is pissing me off just cos she is, i found it hillarious lol we then talked about child birth and vaginal
• This summer, these people and fun i really cant wait for the summer.
• Have already been working on the TAN =D copped some good rays today, yesterday i sunbaked for an hour, i think i am going to start going down the mall to my gym on wednesday lunch breaks to use the solarium, going to start on wednesday :) its only $6 a session and it wont be busy lunch times wednesday :)
• I think i was to retrat my resume for the jon downstairs and deal with the stress, deal with he lack of pay rise, i will be bored, its geat experience upstairs, its high flying and the people are agreat, i want the easier job to cop out, to bludge to feel less stressed. Id rather take strps to dealing with stress, i have also brought up my pay issue with my boss... see how it goes
• REally want to buy a dress for summer, i dound one in SDS i really want, cant wait to pick it up :)
• Am going to get my shoes off lay by this week their for work.
• Have been getting along really well with sares other mate Rach as well, top chick that one, id love to do more with her! the guy she was seeing was sending her MMS of his cock last night.. he had a rad cock lol OMG she just told me she went to his house, it was the first time they met and she fucked him!!! fucking lol!
• Weekend overall was so amazing. i feel so much better then i have been, i am feeling great, things are looking up i have severely sepressed for weeks i fetl like i had no dorection in life, like i was going nowhere i had no passion no spark no nothing, it was frightening :( i feel so good now i hope i can continue feeling this way, i know with me it will take work, it will be effort as i depress easily but its a start.
• fucking ran out of petrol and had to get a jerry can and walk along the main road with it. SO EMBARRASING! hung over as shit, the funny thing was i ran out petrol right outside of mils and literally down the road from the servo. I knew i was low but how coul i be so dumb
• Still havent said hapy father day to dad... thats cos hes never really been a dad
• Going out to a mates for dinenr tonight, hes cooking i dunno whether to be scared of not scared lol

This week i will
Gym it 4 times
Be social
Feel good
Be Happy
and live my life the way i want with me in the control seet.

Best weekend in some time :)

I went the WHOLE week w/o a pack... all i asked last nite was to bum a few smokes of kev. he brought me a pack now i have already had 2 ciggies today!

I have left them in the car, so if i want one its extra effort... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Ill try give heaps of them away tonight


my goal is to be smoke free by year end.

I never smoked during the day i have out it down to 2 ciggies i miss the most.

1. When i get home from work
2. after my shower

I will fight with my inner power

Ran into every tom dick and harry in manly tonight

Nicola from work, Chris from work..... whos flat mate told me that chris had slept with alina the reseptionist fukn LOL

Chels and brenty were there with the girls from school, kev was ther and got in the mingle fuc kit was a good night :)

Good friends, the best times :)